God help you keep your sanity, because I fear I'm losing mine. Not just that, but the people I love. Maybe it's my own fault if I lose you all. I just have that great fear of slipping and falling and having no one to catch me, you guys know that. Ah, you guys saved me when she let go to let me fall. You guys were there in the nick of time. But this time, who's going to catch me if you all let go? Who's going to extend that hand and save me when I slip and before I fall into nothingness?
Please, don't let me go. I'm not going to make it a third time losing good friends.
There's been so much going on with me, but I know that that's not an excuse to be not stay updated. Really, I'm trying to get back on it again. I'm trying to be the Maryanne that's on top of everything and there for everyone at the same time, but it's hard when I have a lot to deal with at home,too. Please, don't leave me the one time I need you. Just this once, at least til I get back on track again. Everything just snowballed and I don't know what to do. I know I made that mistake of starting to drift, and you have no idea how sad I am that that happened. But I really needed time away. Maybe, you can't forgive me as easily for that? I can't blame you. But it's spreading now and I really can't handle that. I need to fix it before I lose everything.
No, I'm not being dramatic. I'm being as serious as I can. I don't want to beat around the bush anymore either. I just need to fix this. I can't deal with another broken friendship :(
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