Bits and Pieces

Nothing but a myriad of complexities, that sums me up perfectly. I know that there's a lot of things I can never make my mind up about. There are things that I decide on and go back on. Sometimes, I say one thing but I really mean the other thing. I know what I am but don't always know what I want. There's so much of this and a little of that and it's all tossed together into a tempest that's  gentle breeze. 

I am a good little girl that obeys everything she's told. I don't sneak around doing what they don't want. I don't go out and hang out with my friends. I'd choose my SLYM family time over pretty much anything else. I stay up late studying on school nights. I always turn homework in. I get straight A's and keep a GPA over 4.1. I work work work. I need to write or else I don't feel complete. I can be a hopeless romantic. I can sit by myself for hours on end, thinking thinking thinking, because I'm too shy to get in there. 

There are times when I want to get out there and be normal sometimes. I want to just sleep and be normal with these classes of mine. I want people to not gasp if something doesn't get turned in one time. I want to have talent. I want to get out there and talk. I want to have someone. I want to be there and 'hey!'

I'm so imperfect. I want this and I want that. It's so wrong. I know that I do a lot to confuse. I know that there's a lot to me, and I don't mean that in any way of conceit. I need to figure myself out and get my priorities straight.