Invisible Walls

My entire life I have been sheltered by four tangible walls and four psychological ones. My parents never let me out to hang with my friends. 

Field trips without their supervision are out of the question unless mandatory to pass the class. Movies with the friends at the mall? Absolutely not! 

A house party? It depends how long you have known them. 

Dinner or lunch to celebrate? Maybe, but we will wait outside and you can't go with them to the mall after; you go home.

All the time! I can never ever go out!

I'm the ONLY person in my grade that can't, geeezzzz. I am a freaking junior! I'm almost 16! Yet I still get treated like a child.

What more do I need to prove? I don't lose homework assignments. I have straight A's all the time. My GPA is well above 4.0. I have never lied to my mother. I have never sneaked out or even thought about it. I have never lied about my whereabouts, not that I could anyways. When they tell me not to leave the house of the party, I don't.I stay behind when everybody else goes to the park or whatnot. I do not stay out late when I am at church functions. I never venture outside of the house or apartment. Can't I be trusted?

Oh no, for argument's sake it is the world that they can not trust. Very well, fine, that's true. But if you can not trust the world, then why do you venture out into it? Why do you go to work? Why do you send me to school? Why do you go grocery shopping? What, is it only the world at the mall's theatre that you can not trust? Insanity! The entire world is uncertain. You can't just trust parts of it and conveniently not trust the parts that let me have fun.

I don't know what to tell you anymore. Whenever I try to say that I am old and responsible enough to be able to take care of myself I get the 'If you're so old then take care of yourself and run your life all by yourself you don't need us' lecture. This is so insane, can't I get a little bit of freedom?

To Him: I am soooo sorry that I always have to tell you no when you ask me out. I've been wanting to say yes for a very long time, especially when you always ask. I just can't go out because of my parents! No to my friends so then no to you,too! But I really want to go out when you ask me. I don't know how to work around this without lying to my parents.

To you 3 girlys: I would love to hang with my 3 besties! But how is this going to work out? When oh when can we do this??? It's so unfair