Gone

Just useless thoughts on a person that is 'gone' in a sense...

Why do things have to be like this now? They were going so well. We'd talk to much even though you were so new. It was so easy to make you laugh or say 'oh my gosh!' and that would make me smile. That darn cute WiNk made me fall...darn it. But I didn't say anything because we were good friends. 

Then I had that dream where you were mad at me. What a foreshadowing. The few days after, you grew silent. Why? Why? Why? I wish you would tell me.

This...this is killing me!

'How was your weekend?'

'Good.' *looks away and is silent til the remainder of lunch

What am I to do ? I don't want to bombard you with questions that you won't answer!!!

What happened to before? When I would ask a random question about yourself and you would return the favor and we would talk all lunch??? Just the two of us at the table long after everyone else has left! Whyyyy?

I don't get it. I didn't say anything wrong did I? I know I didn't.

It just happened.

Did he tell you something? Maybe he shouldn't have?

I'm sad.

You grew silent with me and him. We got worried. But he said you were back to your old self last week, talking and joking with him. Well! Not with me!

He wouldn't believe me when I suggested you were still different with me or maybe angry.

So today, i came late to my meeting to try again, as i always do, every  lunch

'how was your weekend?'

'good'

*looks down and doesn' t reply to me after*

'did you do anything?'

*doesn't hear?

 doesn't want to answer?*

I sigh and give up for the day. Tired as I am, i feel even worse now.

And I trudge off to the meetings.

bakit ba ganyan?

wala naman akong ginawang masama, pero ayan ka! Para bang wala ako

wala na ba ako sayo?

wala naman akong kasalanan, alam ko yun

di naman kita sinkatan or anything

gosh...this is so saddening