Incredibly Insane

Apparently, the countless transgressions in this life on mine have a purpose, correct? Well, if I'm to argue that everything that happens to me in this life has a reason, it's therefore safe to conclude that their are some sort of reasoning behind all these terrible things that happen now. For one thing, sickness. I've been sick for nearly a week now. The headache set in Saturday, and ended Monday. The fever was present for a day. But oh my, the terror in between has not been enjoyable. I have not been taking care of myself, I won't lie. I haven't, because I've been putting the work first,hmmm?
Well, this is what happens when I take 5 weighted classes and earn a 4.7 for the first semester: I crash. Today was the only day I was present for one whole day of school. I missed Monday, left early on Tuesday and Wednesday and came late on Thursday. The only reasons were for a test and a lab and a quiz. Yes, indeed, I can not afford to miss anything.
Life is just hectic right now.
But at least things at home have settled down for a bit. Mother and Father haven't argued in...weeks. It's incredible, really. But all the more unsettling. It's been such a while since they've fought, so that means that the next time it happens will be rather major. It's sad to anticipate it, but I've come to embrace this cycle of my life. It's an inevitable transgression that my parents will end up fighting to violently again that it will leave me sleepless for some nights. And that's that.
As mild as this week should have been, catching up has been a challenge. I'm not back to %100, but I'll still perform like I'm at %90. My %90 is still more than most people, I can handle it. If not, I'll wait til I collapse before I stop.
I'm waiting for it all to set in again, because I know it will. Right now, I'm in a daze: the world is going slowly. I'm sleeping early and getting work done early and not having tests pile up. What a dream! I'm waiting for the time to pick up and the week will fly by in a blur of practice and tests and AP test upon AP test and AP homework piling up alongside the honors and my midnight or later sleeping patterns...That's the accustomed flurry of my life, and I'll just wait for it to return. Whether or not I'll be ready for it, I'll take it on and just live. That's how it is and that's what I'll deal with.
Maryanne is currently on her way back....