The Harder it Gets...

"...to let go can be very frustrating. Right now, I need to be studying AP and so what the heck am I doing here? I can't study! I don't know why, but I can't focus and this is so ridiculous because I feel like crying! And I don't know why! Emotional overload maybe? But I've been fine lately, I know that I have....haven't I?" That was from a few weeks ago. Lost, definitely lost. That's all I can say for myself.Where is a person to turn to when this sort of thing occurs? Normally, one looks to that backbone of friends for support. Sometimes, sometimes, it's just not what you need. It's nice to know that a shoulder to cry on exists, but that's not the cure that you need sometimes. Truthfully, maybe there are times when I don't know and I just don't want to. Something was wrong, and maybe I just don't want to analyze it and figure out what was wrong me. Of course, it's annoying to want to burst out into tears when I need to study. But maybe, I should just break down and cry.Thing is, I don't do that. I never do. And look where I end up: spontaneously needing to break down.


Just remember that deep breathing is key. And to always, always smile.