Changes & stronger bonds.

This is what I want right now, and it isn't like me normally. So, it scares me a bit.

Change. I actually want it.Everything right now, if it would change, I would try to embrace it and grow. Not a whole turn around,but if small things did then I would deal. Friends, let me lose the bad ones, make new better ones. If that's God's plan for me, then I am ready.
Myself. Is it time for me to change as well? Maybe it is, so I'll try to stop being shy.I'm feeling very empowered right now after what's gone on lately.I don't want to be that girl that has a crush on that Confirmation guy and still can't go and talk to him often.I plan on changing that.Slowly but surely? Quickly? I don't know, but my goal is to speak often to him by the end of the year, and this time, it happens.

Strongers Bonds. My mother always said that making friends was all right, but that best friends don't exist.Give someone your trust and you will get hurt.Boyfriends and love are myths. Give someone your heart and then they can crush your soul.I never wanted to believe it, then things happened. That got me thinking, and if it wasn't for some good people, I would have strayed down the wrong path and chosen to be a library recluse that would never trust again. But now, I relish the bonds I kept with those who saved me.I want to make those bonds stronger.So what if it hurts at the end? So what if it is worse? It will be worth it.Now, I don't just want to be "friends". I want the bonds to be stronger than ever and leave the impressions on a soul that last a lifetime.