Ambition Shot

All right, so being as shy as I am, there was no way on earth that I would be able to readily approach some guy that I've liked at Confirmation since forever. It's terrible, I can comment him on myspace and we did talk, but he is rarely ever online. At the retreat this summer, I left him a note or two in the bags everyone had but that was it, and I said "hi." How terrible is that? I get very nervous when he's there.
But,I don't know. I'm tired of being shy, and it's been forever that I've liked him. I want to talk to him properly and yet am scared to. I don't know why, but he is quiet also. Very, much more reserved than the rest. He goes to Rowland, and nearly everyone at Confirmation is from Walnut High. He has one other friend that goes to Rowland and they hang out, his friend knows about me liking the guy. He was so psyched about saying that he wanted to help me haha Let's hope that helps.
I never do anything, like stand up for myself or make new friends, unless my friends step in and help me.
I don't know what to do. My best friend is good friends with the guy I like, but he is also quiet. Ironic, isn't it? But he isn't letting me chicken out anymore, my best friend wants me to face my fears and talk to the guy that I like.
Well, Tuesday of this week (I have Confirmation on tuesday nights at 7, right after script practice) I was ready to conquer my fear and talk to him. I arrived a bit late but I still got there. To my dismay, the guy that I liked wasn't there that class. -_- Which was unfortunate, because we all paired up and made signs. I partnered with my best friend. And then, everyone had to go around and sign all the other ones. Had the guy I liked been there, he would have gone to us. And my best friend had a rubix cube, which is something that the guy I like loves to tinker with. He solves it in less that a minute, too.
That's fate. And now I don't have class next week, so I won't get another chance for two weeks. The irony! When he is there, I am too scared to do anything. When I'm ready, he isn't there.
I just hope that my resolves stays strong for next time.