Is it any Wonder?

Isn't it a given that human beings take the time that they have for granted? It must be because we misbelieve that we're in FULL control. But we are never fully in control, and to believe so gives birth to error. We are never 100% the ones in charge. Humanity can't rise up to improve for the benefit of all without God. Unfortunately, there are people who think that they'll be fine without Him, and so they do whatever they want. It's sad, because they don't know everything. God does. And it's especially sad when a person decides to waste time because they think that time is on their side because it's in their hands.

So,that's it! I'm not going to go on wasting what I've got. I'll laugh as hard as I please and cry my eyes out when the time for it arises. No more stiffling of myself. If there's something that I want to do, I'm going to do it. From now on,I'm getting up to live, because I don't know how much time I'll have to do it, so I won't waste anymore of that time "getting ready." What humans don't always realize is that when they're born, they are "ready" to face the world to some degree. At least, ready enough to start and then continue learning on the way. But they can't continue learning if they never stop getting ready.

I still haven't figured out why I'm here, I'm too young for that, and I might never know. But I do want to enjoy being here, and that starts now. It should have started long ago, only I was too blind to see. These past few months have been rough, and it showed me that life isn't a uniform place of happiness. So make the good times count and conquer the bad times, when you can't, let it overwhelm you for the moment:it's life.

I think a lot of this epiphany is because I just saw Mamma Mia! and Prince Caspian. In the first movie, there was one song that they sang about how time slipped through their fingers, and a lot of it was wasted. And in the second, it just made me think about how much of my life did I spend being the coward rather than the hero of my own story. Mrs. Rogers has that quote "We are the hero of our own story," and it just really made me want to make myself take the reigns of things around me to the best of my capablity. I won't try for 100% dominance of all that goes on in my life, there's room for God. But it's time that I stepped up and took responsibility for the part that God has given me, the part that I've shyed away from and didn't take responsibility for.

I think this songs sums up a lot of the things that I need to realize.