Here I Go Again

Blog Post Reference: http://silentreveriesmadeknown.blogspot.com/2008/12/i-hate-how.html
Read it. It explains everything.

That one should be read, that post is me at the point of my rage during the worst week of my life. It's the essence of everything that is going on in my head right now. The people to forgive, the things to turn my back on, where to go, who to run to, everything. I really don't know why, but the whole idea of seeking the perfect romance is still in my head.
I know it's not true!That's why humans immortalize it in whatever creations they can:songs,stories,movies,poems,novels,etc. We immortalize and uplift that which we can not attain. But where can we find it? Is it even really possible? Maybe it's not for everyone, if it's even for anyone at all.
I don't know why it's obessessing me now. Maybe I'd just like to find my own happiness,but I know it's not eternal. The type of happiness that we all seek is the lasting kind, and everything but God has its own inevitable doom here on earth. I'm fully aware that what I seek, if I even know, will end. And yet I want to seek it even more.

I want to form bonds, stronger ones.I've mentioned it before, but I really want to work towards that. I've been told that it's hard to know many people in high school, because it makes it that much harder to say goodbye. I know that, and yet as much as I wish to alleviate that, I want to forge stronger bonds. I know that in the end, many will break and weaken, because I can't keep them all, but if that's what happens in enjoying my life and the time that I have with my friends, then I'm willing to pay that price.

I'm going to live in the here and now and change myself. It's already begun, because I'm not as shy as I once was. This life of mine only comes once, and I'm going to make the best and the most of it.