Disappointment and News from Beyond my Mind.

Time to take things out of my head and just focus on what's happening lately, not what I am thinking. Those are pointless most of the time anyways, last post is a any indication.

So, it's been a whole week in the apartment now. No change, my father is here with us and acting as if things are normal. What am I to do but play along? And so I do, but I'm terribly disappointed that my mother didn't follow through...that's all. But I guess that I'll have to learn how to deal and hide it like I always do. Things are just more peaceful that way...for everyone.

Lately, this one guy's been texting me a lot. He was a transfer last year from Korea and was in 2 of my classes. It was just sort of a "Hey how are you?" sort of thing if I ever saw him in school last year. But this year is different. He's been texting a lot. I really want to believe it's all in friendship, since not many people really talk to him, but sometimes I question that. He's asked me to take him to the mall one time, since he hasn't yet. And asked if I've ever had a boyfriend before. Well, I just want to stay friends.

A friend of his is a transfer student from China that just came last month. I've been talking to him as well, but more in person. We're good friends,too. That's all. I don't know why, but it bugs me that no one else talks to them much, maybe that's why I do. But whatever the case is...ah....

Confirmatiion news again. Wilson and I were in some line when the guy I like comes from behind. What are the odds that he knows the people behind me and ends up right there? I didn't notice til after. Wilson and I deliberated on where to sit and I chose the second place that came to mind. The guy I liked walks in and sits in the place I first thought of. Darn it! And he sat by himself =/ It bugged me enough that he was by himself, bugged me even worse that it was the guy I like. And I was so ready to talk to him after the service, but what did he have to do? He left directly after the service! Ah, this week is my final chance of the year or else 2009 is when I get to try again. Dear God, please let things go well this time.

I haven't posted in a while because we have no internet and I had to go to my grandma's apartment just to do so. I don't know when I can return and analyze all this.