Maternal.

I can't understand why being in charge of things gives me this motherly sort of attachment to the kiddos I help out. Barkada was such a wonderful experience, being Barkada momma is a rare opportunity and I MISS my kiddos. I miss not knowing how their day to day lives are going and not being able to see them in person to check in on them. And now they're all getting their college acceptances and just...wow, they grow up.

Now it's these debate camp kiddos. I only staffed for a week and I was there for 2 full days of the 5 and 2 broken days and 1 day for 15 minutes. I only spoke in front of them all once, judged a handful of rounds, and chaired for one round. So...i don't know. But i guess just knowing these kiddos are going back to China after their time in America sort of breaks me up a little. They are amazing debaters and they deserve a spot here. I just hope they'll be okay back home.

But as Chris says, they were there before and they were okay. That's true, very true. I suppose that the only reason we really worry is because we aren't used to that plight. But, to them, that is the reality in which they grew up and they can't imagine anything else. Just, wow. It is amazing how attached I can get when I do these sort of things. Maybe that's bad for me but yeah...I know for the next few days i'll be worrying about those kiddos and whatnot.

At least, Cena has my email and says he'll let me know how things are going. *sigh* I pray that God watches over them all, they're good kids.