Debut Discussions

I still don't know if I'm having one. Well, that's a lie really. Things got settled.

In all honesty, I never thought of having one. Perhaps a bit, but not to extent to visualizing one because I didn't think that funds would ever support such a feat. But mom really wants me to have one because she never had the opportunity to had one and the hotel is giving her an amazing discount. Dad wants me to have one,too. They're reasoning is that I never really ask them for anything and that they want to be able to at least give me this, since we didn't even have a graduation party. But...even at the wonderful discount and etc, I am just not one that likes to spend money. 

Lately, I've been trying to avoid talk of it. My parents and I already planned seating, Camille helped with songs, and Theresa helped with invites. But...I didn't want to accept it. I avoided it when we had funds problems but since school seems to be alright now, it feels like I have to talk about this now. I'm not one for exorbitant spending. I don't want to deal with it. Having a court seems sort of impossible since two of my best guy friends will be away for the whole time and the dances will be self-run. I just feel that if other people have had trouble with a court and etc, then I'll run into a lot more trouble especially since a lot of people don't feel as attached to me. I wouldn't be a main priority and with around a month left it just wouldn't work out.

I don't want to deal with centerpieces and invitations and make up and hair and place holders right now. I don't know why. I should. It's a formal event, I love getting dressed up and etc but...I guess I'm not myself.