At The Back of Your Mind

It's been a while since I've blogged, school just takes so much away. I've so much to muse about, things I've been pushing to the back of my mind for weeks and weeks because work left no time for the quiet solace of thinking to myself. Give me time to catch up myself..

What first, what to address?

Oh,yes. What fear...

Well, my friend's situation makes me aware. She loved him so much, five months, at least. She loved him with all her heart and he ended it because for him...it died. I just don't understand. What do you mean "it died"? Love isn't supposed to die! How can you say you loved her. Were you lying? Were you not serious? How could you have lied to her or played with her like that? She's so broken but you're fine. Why did you let it die? You said you loved her.

She was so broken. Honestly, my heart goes out to her because just thinking about it is enough to scare me to some tears. Honestly, WTF! Love dies? I just don't understand it at all. I'm so confused. I jusþ don't get it. Whyd he do all that he did?

I fear, I fear a lot of things. I fear things that have yet to come...things that might come...the improbable and impossible. I'm like that. God, I trust with all my heart I won't ever be in her place. It's just too hard and to scary for me to even consider "what if?" At all. no, I won't go there...not even going to because my thoughts will never end if I do.