Sentiments of Longing

I miss St.Lorenzo's. I miss being there every week,sometimes more than once. I can't go there much anymore and it's not at all my fault. I don't understand it. I'm not the one who made those decisions and yet I'm the one who loses something. It's not fair. You're decision ruined you, ruined all of us...yet I'm the one who loses that which I hold most dear. You took my stronghold away from me. You took my source of strength away from me now when I need it more Þhan ever. You set me up to misery. You took away the only thing that saves me. You took away that which helps me in the face of adversity and now you give me trials. Did you do this purposely? You removed it and now you can always get to me when I'm weak...because I will always be much weaker than before. You took it away and broke me. Continually it will happen because I can't go back to be repaired.

And most importantly, I feel robbed. You took away my progress. I could have ascended. What an honor I had only imagined. It was right in my grasp and I was thrilled...but I lost it. I lose my opportunity and I blame you. I blame you for taking me away from there and thus I lost my opportunity. I could have achieved it, but because I can't be there anymore, I didn't get it. It makes me want to cry,because this is one thing I've wanted so terribly; one thing I've wanted so badly with every fiber of my being. I was so close, but now I'll probably never have it.

You took that all away from me. You broke me.
God has given me more to be strong with, but nothing can replace SLYM