Ode to a Random

Hey!

Since when do I ever get to go out? Neevvverrr! Well, not yesterday! I actually got to go out and do something on a Friday without the parentals. Down time with my best friend since she wasn't there that first time we went to the movies for my birthday. Erryone was making plans to go to to St. Chris and Hong Kong Plaza on Friday. So Camille & I decided we'd go watch a movie at Puente Hills :) Ended up watching GI Joe since all the other movies are whack lately, and we missed the earliest showing for Love Happens...not cool. Not a lot of people in the theatre, guess because the movie is old. 

How in the heck would it end up in the desert ? Why would you even want to put it there? Yeaahhh, just some of the things she & I wonder about. Mhm, there was no sky...right. It can't be beautiful, there is no sky! Ohhhh, the irony of that evening and the people we ran in to. It gives me the chills but then...I feel nothing. 

Glass walls make everything visible. I can only describe how time slowed as I took that walk past those walls. I can only describe how it felt like a sadly ended dream when I traversed slowly, head turned, shocked at everything. And then, reality returned and time snapped back in fast forward. Heart thudding, blood pounding, I felt like running. I wanted to run far far away, to get away from her and everything that she stood for, everything she wanted to be. I didn't have the face for her mother, didn't want to face her, even minutely through the imitation window. But after I ran, I wondered why. I wanted to know what was wrong with me that I felt like running and then I realized, I didn't have to. I could have held my head high and walked slowly past that window, dignified. I could have met their eyes and told them, showed them they had no hold over me. Because I realize now, I don't feel any more sentiments towards her, as it should be.