Lately, everything and everyone has been seriously making me very very happy. Words can not even begin to describe these days. I just wish that everyone could be happy. But MIRROR just has to be a total downer. I don't get it, can't you please cheer up?
Look, you were gone for three whole months. Don't say people didn't make an effort to speak to you because we all did! You replied initially but then it started deteriorating, like a good friend of ours said today. I know it must have been sad back there, but you let it get to you. You carried it by yourself when everyone else was here for you, miles and miles away, but still ready to listen. You didn't want to share anything when you really should have. I thought that we had finally made progress and gotten you to break out of your shell, things seemed so fine. But now what happened? Fine, is that what you would like? To internalize it all and pour misery into your blog because you say no one listens? No one can listen if you don't speak.
Why do you suddenly return and have a problem with everyone ? Not even kidding. You never want to come around anymore. What is that? Look, you were gone all summer. Alright. Now that you're back and there's school, rebond with everyone. Seriously. Please do not complain when you do nothing to fix it. And then you blame everyone else for changing, stop pushing us away. Things wouldn't be this bad if you got out there to fix it. Drifting occurs when both sides do not make an effort. WE are all making an effort but you refuse to see it.
Look, are you made at me? Do you hate me? Do you hate him?
It's sad what you told me, that he's going to make me cry. You don't like him with me. You predict he'll hurt me badly.
Why would you even say that? That's just so mean. There's no basis for the accusations! You can never make a claim without basis! Then the argument is weak and refutable! I find these statements completely refutable and I have the basis to support them!
He waited 2 years, who does that? Any other guy would have just given up on me and not made the effort to spend two years of friends first before making a move. And when he did,I initially shot him down and broke his heart. i can't live with myself for doing that but he still waited. What is wrong with you?
How can you say a guy like that would purposely make me cry? He waited two years and even bore with my stupid little crushes without saying a word about how it must have killed him inside to hear about all that. Don't even start to question how good he is.
I can't believe you could say that to me after everything he did for me when you know how it was working out so well for he and I. It's all official now, so don't guilt me.
I wish you could be happy with your life. Things are looking up but you still internalize the wrong things are end up very upset. Emo on myspace :( People are concerned about you, stop saying they aren't. They keep asking what's wrong. You won't tell. If you just want to be sad, alright then. I can't force you to talk about it.
Guilt tripping is a low blow, though, i really hope you know that. I also hope you know that it's the most heart wrenching of all the things i have to get faced with. as a best friend, you should know that,too
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