The Looming Future.

When most people look towards the future, they see progress. Other people view it as a shade of uncertainty darker than the rest of their journey in life. I tend to side with the latter in that I'm worried about not knowing where I will end up.
Especailly right now, what with the moving, familial problems, financial situation, and reassessment of who is a real friend, my future is starting to come off and incredibly shady.
I don't know what it is that I want out of life just yet, but my mother is rushing me. She wants me to decide now so that she can plan ahead. As rational as that seems, can it really be done? Can an entire lifetime, which most individuals spend decades deciding upon at times, really be deciding by myself right now when I am barely fifteen? Try as I might, I won't acheive a satisfying picture if I did.
The truth is, we don't know what the future holds for us. Yes, we are in charge of it for the most part, and that grows as we get older. But we need to understand that as human beings we are subject to the will of God, or higher power if you may, and we can not plan against his will. His will shall always end up trumphing ours, even if that means we must rethink our entire plan after we have deciding.
Therefore, when we decide our futures, never assume that it is rock solid simply because we will it. It's God's will that matters in the end, and we must follow his the best way that we can. Only then, can we be sure that we are fulfilling our life purpose, even minimally: when we follow God